"The Inside Job''
For relaxing yourself, please close your eyes. Lay down on your bed. Stretch out, loosely. Stay calm.
Can you? Stay calm? I would guess the answer is ‘no’, for to stay calm, both mentally and physically, is one of the hardest things for most of us to do. It takes a lot of learning, practice, reflecting on, and examining of our mind, by our mind, just to be truly 'at rest and living' at the same time.
The main problem is our mind. Thought after thought will randomly go across our mind. They are so random, so many, so unstoppable, so speedy, so impactful on our mind that they can make us feel all kind of feelings, one after another. And the mind-body connection ‘mechanism’ will be ignited. That is what you call becoming irritated. what you call being restless, and you are not at rest. Internal energy convulsions, one after another; conflicts and drives, all competing for your attention.
Actually 'the whole thing' is taking place inside of us. We ‘are one’ with the universe, both inside and out. And the one main characteristic of the thing we call 'existence' is that it is made up of 'Rhythms and Harmonies' all inside of the 'Chaos and Disorder'.
Think of our existence in the solar system. All in absolute Chaos and all in absolute Harmonies.
Think of the periodical roaming of the Haley Comet passing by our planet. Please, think of how we, as a human race, were able to survive up to this point, in spite of everything. Yes, harmonies and rhythms in all the absolute chaos.
In the DNA of chaos, there are harmonies, rhythms, and the seeds for progression. Always.
Yes, our mind needs to stay alert all the time, and we as human beings need to experience life and learn from it, for our survival and progress.
So, consciously or unconsciously, along with the progress, at the base line of our stream of mind, we also gathered anxiety, greed, passions, pains, anger, desires both good and bad, lust, and everything, and in our mind, like a wild horse, will be ever running free and wild.
When we stop and think and look for a time to make a check on why we can't be truly happy and peaceful in life, and to look for a way out of the tiresome and depressing regular cycle of daily routines, the wild horse won't hear our calling. That is the problem. We face it whenever we try to tame, all at once, that wild horse and to make it steady and at ease after all those years of making it ever alert, aggressive, wild and free. There can be nothing more contradictory than those two necessities in our life. ‘Struggling for survival and looking for the state of a peaceful mind.’
Here, the point is the characteristics of 'the thing ' we call existence. There will always be rhythms, dynamic equilibriums, and clues to any kind of progressions in each and every DNA of chaos and unrests. First, please remember this fact. Then trust 'God ' or 'the Law of Nature' for everything and beyond. Then, please have patience.
Note the resistance to what comes up in your mind, one after another. Note everything down that is giving your mind so much trouble and that you feel you must solve away in the outside world. Do this in a practical, peaceful, and diplomatic manner as soon as possible and also note the attitudes and commitments which you left unchecked which may have brought you into troubles and crises again and again. Notice their patterns and once you see them in your observations, during your stay-calm sessions, they will be labelled.
I said, it takes a lot of practice. Yes, it does. And the more you practice, the more you will become skillful, to a point that once your mind tries to tell you (your mind) a lie, you will at once know that. (A lie like, ‘if you buy that sport car and show it off to girls, you will be becoming a playboy’. Yes, you can be, but in the long run, you can also be left with the problem of your financial resources pretty dried out. You may also be missing opportunities of finding an honest and stable woman for a meaningful and honest relationship.) So, in the process of practicing, you will be having less troubles and more progress.
In life, we are never at a stop at somewhere. That is what we are ever afraid of to be. Aren't we? Yet, if we are not progressing, then we are falling back, and if we are not falling back, then we are progressing.
Practicing being ‘at rest’ can be a fearsome internal war. It will take all your resources for winning out. It will take patience and trust above all else, and it is all an ‘Inside Job’. It may be the most tedious job in your life that will take all your efforts and wisdom, but the victory, the pay-off, and the progress will be wonderful and worth all of that.
At the same time, the process will be very mysterious and adventurous.
I say.
Phoe Wa
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