“If only,” 'What should have been,” and “I should not have done that,” are the three things that generally torture our mind the most. And “Why me,” also. We will try to explain ourselves again and again. We will try to find the answer from people, from books, from consultants, and in our religions. It is easier said than done to 'Forgive and Forget' and move on, but those past movies will play all on their own in our minds, again and again, randomly or whenever there are coincidences. Old words, old people, old songs, the weather … anything. No, 'this too shall not pass away' easily. They might have technically passed away, but they come back again and haunt us. That is scarier.
It is normal for us to get used to thinking that way if our daily routines are going smoothly, and if we are making progressions in life, then we are OK. We are successful.
You have a nice family. You have a fine house. You have a good income. You are healthy and respected in your field of profession. Then, by universal definition, you are OK in life but the problems only you know and that you are facing can sometimes can be. Your childhood traumas, your shameful unethical wrongdoings in the past, you hearing in your mind again and again those harsh words from your big mouth to the others, heart burning words from the others to you, and sometimes traumatically depressing life events. Those life events you have experienced were so complicated and so bad that you won't be able to get rid of them from your mind by any means. What was even more depressing about them was that you could do nothing then, and even if you were given all the wisdom of the world in the present time, you won't know how to solve them away. They can be so complicated.
Yes, that is the case with most of us in life. for we are just the players in this game of life, and in this whole thing 'the domain', we can't know or understand all the networking, the functioning, and the programming of it. No, we are not meant to know all. We can't. We are not meant to know them all, by our brain or our thinking.
That is where our heart needs to weigh on in. Intuitions and feelings, they are our GPS. The rule of thumb of life is, 'If you don't feel good about something, then don't do that'. Yet still, there are life duties that will call on us and we are to answer to them, as well as we can. Whether if we feel like to do them or not is a case apart. And the traumas become inevitable.
The clue is, deep down, we sense that there is a universal key to solve away our mental problems when we get these feeling from deep down and inside, otherwise, those mental problems, the more we try to forget and suppress them, the more they will persist and stay.
It is time to surrender and let go. Surrender to what? Ah yes, to no other than 'The Source,’ that is the programmer of the whole thing. We know it does exist.
Like how?
Let me give you one method as an example. My son, when he was 3 -4 years of age, played a lot and would run into accidents a lot. Small bruises, one after another, on his body. One time, he had a small bruise on his right finger and it hurt him a lot. Although it was a very small one, and after some medicine was applied to it, he still cried and cried. I was so sad. Then, for I couldn't stand any longer, I told him to throw that wound into my belly. I told him I would take that and keep that in my belly. He threw his wound to my belly, and I acted like I received it. The wound was still there on his little finger, but he seemed relieved and started to fell a lot better. And then started to play around again.
I brought him into this world. I am his source. I am all responsible for my child and the same will be true with ‘our source’ and us. We are the children in the domain. What if we were to imagine throwing away all our wounds in life that won't get healed by all our own efforts, and instead throw them into the belly of the Creator or the Source? Isn't He responsible for everything? Who are we to try to solve (unsuccessfully) all those incredibly complex life problems that leave us deeply wounded inside?
Try all you can. Yes, you are responsible for all your thoughts and actions in life, but beyond that, let those things go that you cannot heal and throw them into the ‘Belly of God’. And play again joyfully.
It is 'He' who can, not us. 'He' is the programmer. The original software designer. We are just players in his game.
Phoe Wa
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