Generally, the greatest regrets were in our failures in relationships.
That one girl was quite strange. She came into my life, into my world, when I was just 17, just after I passed my matric. I accidently saw her while she was visiting her aunt, living in a house that was on the other side of the street and zig zag to ours.
Ah yes...she was that one kind most of us usually happened to come across in our late teenage years. And just once in a lifetime. We all have our 'that one' who will be in our heart all the rest of our life, don't we? And not a point we can find to try to erase that memory; so pure, honest, organic, and so sweet.
So, the story began. and going out to a public pub with friends of from both sides was the furthest point we got. That was all within 3 years… and then I became 20, and she was 17.
And the storm? I needed to finish up my engineering education. She won the scholarship for starting up her university years in a developed country. I encouraged her to go. I thought we would meet up again when she came back. How innocent were we? A university student of 20 and a girl of 17. She left and the rest was the story. The same old story. After our graduations, life struggles came to us both and we drifted apart. She never returned.
That was a life story always to be somewhere in my heart. After that, life goes on. Relatives, friends, life treasures came into my life and went out. Yes, along with and sometimes parallel to those unwanted things and events in my life. Then my settled life, with purposes and issues as always.
All along, I have been questioning God on 'why life, as we know it, is this way. And then, life goes on. Now in my mid-40s (I am 45), I invented a prayer to say to God. At one time or another in my life, those sweet, sweet memories were 'there'. They happened to me. I keep them in my heart. I store them in my DNA, as my treasures.
"God, please unfold them at the right time and at the proper places in the circle of my life. We need more time together. We have more words left to share in our living years ... next time, so we will be a better ‘us’. Better and more happy persons in the eyes of “You".
I hope he will answer to them accordingly.
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